Hey friends. So this week has been rather momentous for me... I returned home to Austin feeling a bit discombobulated and slightly depressed - missing my friends and the familiarity of being at my other home of Western, MA - where things were so familiar and easy. I need to keep reminding myself that I have not even been in Austin for 6 months yet! It takes time to get to know a new community and re-settle. At least a year they tell me. This week, however, I feel like I am reaching a new phase in my life here in Austin that is pretty fucking exciting!
On Saturday, I did something I have never done before - I just didn't go to work. Was planning to make my exit in a more graceful manor, as I have instilled in me a pretty strong and hearty New England work ethic, however circumstances presented themselves - like crawfish boils, beer, and a real Italian offering to cook a group of my friends pasta dinner - and, well, I just didn't go! And after the 10 minutes of guilt for leaving my co-workers stranded (after all, it's not their fault that the company we work for are money grubbing assholes) I felt really, really great!!!
Instead of calling myself "unemployed" however, I really and truly feel for perhaps the first time that I am, in fact, gainfully SELF-EMPLOYED!!! The Kickstarter really helped me with this - giving me the confidence that I can, in fact, be self-determined and create my own income stream. (Thank you, everyone, for helping me to believe this) Have been working hard on booking shows every morning, practicing my uke and going on walk - abouts. The kinetic processor in me now has the space to brainstorm, and let me tell you, there are some big and exciting ideas for cross pollination, radical activism and community building, both in Austin and beyond brewing.
My practice now is to continue to embody this way of living, which was in fact my new years resolution. These are the lessons:
1) Stop Worrying - it's pretty useless
2) There IS enough. Trust in abundance