Well, after a few months hiatus, the Texas muse has returned! Have been writing a bunch of new songs and starting work on the zine for my new album! Forgot how intense this process is, as well as how finicky - like yesterday I had so much energy and produced a ton of work (keeping me up til 4am!) and yet today I could barely move from my bedroom to the kitchen! It does feel really good to be back in production mode, however, and to take a wee brake from booking/other less fun parts of the job. Part of this muse returning, I think, is in large part due to the inspiring events I have been so grateful to now have the time to attend.
On Saturday, I went to my late housemate Laura's memorial service at Jacob's Well. It was so beautiful and moving, with lots of dancing, nature, and delicious food. I cried, remembering back to when I first moved to Austin and how she and Bruce so effortlessly welcomed me into their home. I've included this amazing video one of her friends made about her, which she narrates. Helped me to get to know/understand Laura a lot better. I hope you enjoy it.
I also got to go to some amazing parties and concerts this week: A bluegrass pizza party and to see Laura Mvula at the Perish. Holy shit, if you have not heard of this girl, you better check her out. She is definitely the next big thing. One of the best concerts I've ever been to - a modern day Nina Simone.
Had a practice to prepare for my return to the studio on Sunday. Will keep you posted on progress. The next two months are gonna be busy!!!
Hey friends. So this week has been rather momentous for me... I returned home to Austin feeling a bit discombobulated and slightly depressed - missing my friends and the familiarity of being at my other home of Western, MA - where things were so familiar and easy. I need to keep reminding myself that I have not even been in Austin for 6 months yet! It takes time to get to know a new community and re-settle. At least a year they tell me. This week, however, I feel like I am reaching a new phase in my life here in Austin that is pretty fucking exciting!
On Saturday, I did something I have never done before - I just didn't go to work. Was planning to make my exit in a more graceful manor, as I have instilled in me a pretty strong and hearty New England work ethic, however circumstances presented themselves - like crawfish boils, beer, and a real Italian offering to cook a group of my friends pasta dinner - and, well, I just didn't go! And after the 10 minutes of guilt for leaving my co-workers stranded (after all, it's not their fault that the company we work for are money grubbing assholes) I felt really, really great!!!
Instead of calling myself "unemployed" however, I really and truly feel for perhaps the first time that I am, in fact, gainfully SELF-EMPLOYED!!! The Kickstarter really helped me with this - giving me the confidence that I can, in fact, be self-determined and create my own income stream. (Thank you, everyone, for helping me to believe this) Have been working hard on booking shows every morning, practicing my uke and going on walk - abouts. The kinetic processor in me now has the space to brainstorm, and let me tell you, there are some big and exciting ideas for cross pollination, radical activism and community building, both in Austin and beyond brewing.
My practice now is to continue to embody this way of living, which was in fact my new years resolution. These are the lessons:
1) Stop Worrying - it's pretty useless
2) There IS enough. Trust in abundance
I sit in my tropical paradise backyard and take in being home from being home. What a whirlwind tour - was great to see friends, play shows, eat, and drive around last week. It's always interesting when you return to the place you are from after being away and to notice how you and everyone else has changed, but also stayed the same. It's like fast forwarding on a movie or something - you basically get it, but there is a piece that has been lost that you may never have access to.
I feel like I am staring at a blank canvas right now. The trip home was necessary, and now I need to decide what (and equally important, how) to do with my life. I feel an inevitable change and want to sit with this. As my Dad would say, "Trust the Process." It is exciting to come home and not have to think about my Kickstarter anymore - another reason why I might be feeling a bit of a gap. Am soo thrilled to have exceeded our goal and truly grateful to everyone who helped us get there. I am eager to jump right in, but this weather - about to rain with energy in the wind - is telling me to just sit here for a while and be.