This past week had been a complete whirlwind. Through all the stress, challenges and sadness, I do my best to learn lesson of letting go of expectations/plans, how to really live and, as Bruce and Laura would say, "keeping the main thing the main thing" (Main thing = love)
Last Sunday night, I arrived home to discover an ambulance in my driveway. My "house mother' Laura Rose, had been ill, however previous to the weekend her condition seemed nothing out of the ordinary. Over the course of the week, events rapidly unfolded and turned for the worse. It was discovered last Monday that she had been living with a Staph infection that had now spread to her blood, turned into sepsis, and worsened a pre-existing heart condition. While in the hospital, she also suffered multiple strokes. On Friday night, her family and doctors, after careful consideration, made the decision to take her off of life support and she passed away.
Though I had only known and lived with Laura Rose since December, we had grown quite close, and she has been an extremely supportive presence in my life here in Austin (as well as the lives of countless others.) It is telling what a unique and loving person she is by the fact that there has been a stream of 20 - 50 people outside of her hospital door praying for her and showing their support. The whole thing has been extremely sad and emotional, and completely devastating for her partner, family, and those close to her.
Through all of this, I must move forward, and continue to figure out how to ask strangers, friends and family to contribute to my Kickstarter campaign, (I took a break for a few days over the weekend because I frankly just needed to, and it only seemed appropriate.) It feels even more uncomfortable now, however, to ask for such a seemingly selfish endeavor during such a sensitive time for those around me. I try to have compassion for everyone, as well as myself, and remember the reason behind these requests - that it is not about the money or the attention in and of itself, but rather that the money represents energy that I wish to use to make my music and art to spread love and joy and healing and make the world a better place. Laura did this better than almost anyone I have ever met, and I do my best to hold her lessons and spirit in my mind and body as I move forward into the middle of the campaign.